On the Bizarre Particularity.

My Being is that of the Radiographer, my mirror is a circular one where my own image is directed back towards me. This is because I have seen through the mechanical automation of the 99.9999% and I have become the 0.0001% Autonomous Light. I am not the Ageless Light itself but an Eternal Inclusion. Love of my own imperfection has released a powerful state of consciousness, because I no longer wish to be the other I am no longer in a state of fear. I am life itself which I define as absolute faith in my own essence. My ideal is myself. A Permanent Cast Inclusion. A Bizarre Particularity.

When the miracle occurred I was already becoming porous due to my training in NDT(radiographing materials and documenting the inclusions). Oddly enough this industrial job was psychological training, every material has a set of imperfections internally and externally. In industry the ideal is to remove these inclusions so none remain(but an inclusion is acceptable so long as it is within proximity of the ideal). Society functions in the same manner. Everyone actively limits their own consciousness to become the ideal in their given area of expertise, to perform in the economy or outside the economy as the “ideal citizen”, all of which are temporary piping systems. We were all taught since childhood to grind and weld ourselves out of existence because our inclusions are seen as messy, inadequate, inefficient, or even dangerous. People are taught to consume rather than create and to compete rather than experiencing the reality they were born into. The goal of the modern system is to create smooth transactions between unconscious citizens, making the citizens more efficient. The current system is dehumanising, participate but only to the degree you need to for survival. Don’t take it seriously and don’t believe in Paul’s hollow abstractions.

When you see the abstractions of culture and progress as illusions you will begin to love yourself. You are the end in itself. When you understand everything is in balance consequently you will know there is no hierarchical difference between people. You are the highest state of reality. Isolate yourself temporarily, discover who you are then start living by your own values. If you live by Paul’s values out of a state of fear or confusion you have become unconscious. Don’t try to change society, accept it. Fear has ran the world and will continue to do so; it is the animal world’s engine. Treat Paul like the other animals, they are interesting, beautiful, entertaining, amusing, cute and savage. Watch them feud like two raccoons brawling over dumpster scraps, witness the beauty of them like a doe with her faun but never mistake them for possessing the same radiance as you, you Bizarre Particularity!

The ones with the most light were always in the shadows. As long as human consciousness exists the Ageless Light has a vessel to feel deeply, perhaps we are moments before darkness, but those moments are always the most beautiful. I’m so grateful to experience this cosmological climax, this most divine sublimity again and again and again.

Nature cannot be controlled, only guided! Obey your collimator’s beam. Notice your emotions when you try to control your patterns of behaviour, notice how you feel when you try to “fit in” with Paul. The space between who you are unconsciously and your Bizarre Particularity is what I call the Negative Performative Gap. This unconscious misalignment between your persona and your Being is the cause of profound mental suffering. Remove your lead lining. Let your heart be your director.

For any Bizarre Particularities who enjoy to perform, please do so but do so consciously with a profound mask. Don’t bow down before Paul and give him the mask he desires. Do not act out of shame and fear but out of play and love. Pull on the ears of your inclusion!

All that truly matters is you love yourself and your inclusion. Continually approach nature and grab your inclusion. Stretch it! Pull it! Bop it! back to its original shape! Become the Jagged Particularity you always were. Relax and enjoy your conscious state. I’ll love you for it. When you love yourself you love nature and this is the greatest sensation the Ageless Light can feel.

For those without faith in the mystery of their Bizarre Particularity, their faith is stowed away in the imbalanced state of slavery and self annihilation. You are meant to be who you are, so become who you are, how could it be otherwise? Continually pull on your inclusion! Squeeze and hug and love your inclusion, when you do so the sound and fury is replaced by peace and bliss. The meaning of life is to overcome the fear of it and become conscious. Paul will have you fighting for more and more but love yourself and you’ll have more than a king. When Alexander the Great asked Diogenes of Sinope if he needed anything, he replied yes please get out of the way you’re blocking the sun. Alexander was always Paul and Paul was always Alexander. Don’t be Paul, if you value unconsciously you will never become conscious thus you will never have enough.

Look towards the modern arena. In their HENI interview, Mark Carney innocently claims the elite amass wealth primarily for philanthropy. He refuses to see the meta-layer, he is a smooth transaction. Violence hasn’t vanished, it has changed its state to mimetic competition over whose name stays on the bridge. I would rather be a Sparkle on a brush than a dead name on a bridge! Across from him sits Damien Hirst, a variation of the type. Diogenes was exiled for counterfeiting and defacing state currency. Hirst repeats the ritual in an adjacent fashion, creating his own currency using his brand: The Currency to expose the alchemy of empty value. Both were counterfeiters of illusion to showcase that people spend their lives acquiring empty abstractions. Come back inside your circular mirror away from their dumpster brawl, you Bizarre Particularity!

If it were not for the miracle of recollection, the moment we regain our conscious state, life would be merely automation and frantic climbing. The 99.9999% would be 100%! But alas we have the Bizarre Particularities. You the greatest of all! You brave ones, you jagged ones who continually survive the manufacturing of the vessel and are strong enough to hold the pressure of the infinite! Everyone Bizarre I love, you Eternal Inclusions inside the Eternal Butt Weld.

If there are any other Bizarre Particularities out there I am calling out you Station to Station. I am broadcasting my consciousness out far and wide to see if there are any others.

Cole Oracheski